afterglow - inxs

August 4th, 2006 by oettie

Here I am, lost in the light of the moon that comes through my window

Bathed in blue, the walls of my memory divide the thorns from the roses

It’s you and the roses

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow

Heal me from all this sorrow

As I let you go I will find my way when I see your eyes

Now I’m living in your afterglow

Here I am, lost in the ashes of time, but who wants tomorrow?

In between the longing to hold you again

I’m caught in your shadow, I’m losing control

My mind drifts away, we only have today

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow

Heal me from all this sorrow

As I let you go I will find my way

I will sacrifice ’til the blinding day when I see your eyes

Now I’m living in your afterglow

When the faith has gone as I let you go, as I let you go

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow

Heal me from all this sorrow

As I let you go I will find my way, I will sacrifice

Now I’m living in your afterglow

Bathed in blue, the walls of my memory divide the thorns from the roses

It’s you who is closest…

Goodbye My Love

February 28th, 2006 by oettie

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
‘Cause I saw the end before we’d begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what’s mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won’t stop there,
I am here for you if you’d only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I’ve kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I’ve been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can’t break my spirit - it’s my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I’ve seen you cry, I’ve seen you smile.
I’ve watched you sleeping for a while.
I’d be the father of your child.
I’d spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We’ve had our doubts but now we’re fine,
And I love you, I swear that’s true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I’m asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I’m kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
You have been the one for me.

I’m so hollow, baby, I’m so hollow.
I’m so, I’m so, I’m so hollow.
I’m so, I’m so, I’m so hollow.

- James Blunt

sekali lagi tentang cinta

December 26th, 2005 by oettie

tersenyumlah karena kau bisa rasakan sentuhannya,

kau rindukan kesejukannya,
dan kau masih punya kesempatan menyebutnya.
nikmatilah.

karena mungkin esok,

kau bangun diantara embun,

sadar dan tercekat,
dia sudah pergi.

(dan sajakmupun mengalir, cerita cinta yang lain, kali ini perih
dan luka.)

puisi buat azza

December 22nd, 2005 by oettie

cintaku putih,

cintaku tak berpamrih.

begitu katamu, bangganya suaramu.

aku tersenyum.

cintaku utuh,

cintaku tak berujung.

tatapanmu yakin, berbinar matamu.

aku diam.

aku mencintaimu,

sepenuh hatiku,

kau genggam tanganku, berharap jawabku.

aku beranjak.

hanya sepenggal kata,

kutinggalkan untukmu,

tak ada lagi maaf tersisa, untukmu.

puisi buat mala

December 22nd, 2005 by oettie

aku cinta kamu.

keras kuteriakkan.

berharap mereka mendengar.

aku mau cintamu.

kuteriakkan lagi.

lebih keras.

kali ini mungkin mereka sadar.

hingga habis suaraku.

tak ada jawaban.

kemana mereka?

aku menunggu.

sepi.

kemana mereka?

aku lelah menunggu.

i know him so well

December 6th, 2005 by oettie
Nothing is so good it lasts eternally
Perfect situations must go wrong
But this has never yet prevented me
From wanting far too much for far too long
Looking back, I could have done it differently
Won a few more moments, who can tell?
But it took time to understand the man
Now at least I know, I know him well

Wasn't it good, Wasn't it fine
Isn't it madness he can't be mine
But in the end, he needs a little more than before
Security, he needs his fantasy and freedom
I know him so well

No one in your life is with you constantly
No one is completely on your side
And though I move my world to be with him
Still the gap between us is too wide
Looking back, I could have played it differently
Learned about the man before I fell
But I was ever so much younger then
But now at least I know him well

Wasn't it good (oh so good), Wasn't it fine (so fine)
Isn't it madness he can't be mine

Didn't I know how it would go
If I knew from the start
Why am I falling apart

Wasn't it fine
Isn't it madness he can't be mine
But in the end, he needs a little more than before
Security, he needs his fantasy and freedom
I know him so well
It took some to understand him
Hoo ooh I know him so well 

don’t bother, i’ll be fine

November 19th, 2005 by oettie

aku cape,

aku cape kuatir terus,

aku cape bertanya-tanya "kok bisa ya?"

aku cape dikungkung rasa takut yang ga ada habisnya

aku cape ga bisa apa-apa

dan seperti biasa,

ngumpet di sudut kecilku jadi pilihan menggoda

tapi kali inipun ga bisa

kubongkar semua simpanan teoriku

kucari jawab semua gundah gulana kampret ga penting ini

coba-coba usaha menipu diri sendiri

tapi tetep, aku terlalu pintar untuk bisa percaya

(sumpe, ga enak jadi orang yang banyak tau)

whhhhoooaaaahhh…

tereak juga ga ada gunanya

karena sebenernya aku udah tau jawabnya,

cuma bukan itu yang kumau jadi jawabannya

mungkin mustinya aku mulai cari di halaman kuning

kali ada yang nawarin servis cuci otak

sebodo masalahnya ga selesai juga

toh, aku cuma pengen ilang capenya

toh, sebenernya aku juga sudah tau jawabnya

jadi inget shakira ngoceh,

"don’t bother, i’ll be fine…, promise you won’t see me cry!"

i wish i had that strength again

i’ve lost it all

Wonderful Life

November 12th, 2005 by oettie

Here I go out to sea again
The sunshine fills my hair
And dreams hang in the air

Gulls in the sky and in my blue eyes
You know it feels unfair
There’s magic everywhere

Look at me standing
Here on my own again
Up straight in the sunshine

No need to run and hide
It’s a wonderful, wonderful life
No need to hide and cry
It’s a wonderful, wonderful life

Sun in your eyes
The heat is in your hair
They seem to hate you
Because you’re there

And I need a friend
Oh, I need a friend
To make me happy
Not stand here on my own

Look at me standing
Here on my own again
Up straight in the sunshine

I need a friend
Oh, I need friend
To make me happy
Not so alone
Look at me here
Here on my own again
Up straight in the sunshine

- Black

sad, but it’s true

October 28th, 2005 by oettie

caught in the whirlpool of dreamers,

around us, fantasy keeps escalating,

with nothing but fear consumers,

we embrace the endless time of loving.

we thought we were meant to be,

that our future was foreseen,

that we’re the only ones to ever see,

what true love really means.

at first, it started out great,

it was too good to be true,       

it was more than just a date,

it was simply me and you.

but too soon we loved,

and too late we knew,

that our time was shoved,

when our love was still new.

with the value of us misjudged,

we had to pay the price,

misery was created,

along with a love dice.

the dice recklessly thrown,

and falls hard does the first mistake,

to us it is shown,

love cant be forcibly made.

to begin, our feeble trust strains,

to continue our love evolves into hate,

to remain our last hope drains,

and to end, we sadly blame fate.

though it’s easy to pretend,

what’s the point of it then?

can the guilty really mend,

as time repeats again?

our love is a dying patient,

suffering undeniable pain,

reading the doctors diagnoses,

saying there’s nothing to be gain.

our love was left to mime,

and only reminisced as the ashes of us,

despair commits the perfect crime,

and tricks us into broken trust.

and even though we say,

we want to love evermore,

inside we crave each day,

to get away from the love that sores.

ensnared by the truth and lies,

lost in the subway of eternal vow,

the pleasure of loving cries,

where do we go now?

we gambled our love away,

thinking we could last,

instead we both strayed,

and kept wishing for the past.

we hurt each other too much,

by loving too quick to last,

with our hope still in miseries clutch,

we pray that this would end fast.

now we wish for everything to be,

the way they use to be,

but unfortunately, it will never be,

the way we’ve always wanted it to be.

we swim in unbearable pain,

a polluted pool of us,

we’re both going so insane,

our love evaporating like cold dust.

the simplicity of us,

the complexity of love,

the innocence of ones lust,

the mistake from up above.

there’s no comfort in the truth,

pain is the heart you buy,

glasses breaking the silent soothe,

knowing our love will soon die.

realizing truth hurts,

we part as dying friends,

realizing this hurts,

we part hoping love mends.

maybe it’s better this way,

because we hurt each other so,

with all the things we want to say,

we just have to let it go.            

wounds too deep to heal,

time too short to see,

what we really wanted to feel

the meaning of you and me.

where are you?

October 28th, 2005 by oettie

in this world full of hurt and pain,

i need someone who would help me through the rain.

to comfort me when am sad,

doing everything just to make me glad.

in this world i need a brave knight,

who would never give up any fight.

a knight who would dry away my tears,

telling me to overcome my fears.

a knight who loves me for who i am inside,

with him there’s nothing more i need to hide.

a person who will still be standing strong,

eventhough everything has gone wrong.

i need someone who is willing to give me more,

someone i can call my knight in shining armor.